2 poems
by Hannah Lamb-Vines
Hannah Lamb-Vines is writing a novel about a woman who inexplicably births a sheep dog. An irregularly updated list of her publications is available at neutralspaces.co/lambvines.
can i die but not make a habit out of it?
watch you spit backwards in dreams
whatever they think about you is just a reflection of themselves except for whatever
you think about what they think about you
eat the one hundred dollars with performative gusto
and parmesan
your printing fees
we could all do digital but look what that does to the underworld
and if we are all scraps in the wind
what happened to the trees?
this weekend was a weekend
for the life of me, i avoid everything
therapy is just capitalism’s bandaid, anonymity? you’re paying for isolation
from your community
bike shorts fresh from the plastic
jacket thrifted eleven years ago
t-shirt passed on from a friend
socks, dollar store, christmas
bra, thong, whatever, whatever
i spit backwards in dreams, i’m fucked up
i regret it all, i would do it again if i had the option
but i have the option
i don’t want to do this, i don’t want
yeah, i’ll try anything once
today was a day
i don’t like your beard. i don’t like
your baby talk. i don’t like your
weird obsessions i only like
my weird obsessions. i don’t like
you but you’re here, you’re right
here.
your ego is so real i got it stuck under my fingernails
let’s hug, this rubber smell like september
cut grass on the soccer field
sidelines staring got stuck
no sweater
whatever
i only write poetry when i’m asleep
everything else is translation
the werewolf reads her birth chart
stalled from the start: should i check
the date / time / place where i was born
or where i was bit?